this is me

Hey Guys,

I know I may not have had the best blog, but this blog has meant something to me. This blog has been my world. I am the girl who likes to hike, and find adventure in anything. I have a bad case of ADHD, and I am always tapping my feet in class. My red rain boots make me feel confident. And I could dance in the rain for hours. I really like to listen to music and mess around with my friends.

Christina is just a person who was brave enough to share some of my adventures, and favorite songs with you. She is the my confidence minus the rain boots. I hope you have enjoyed it because I sure have!



                                                                            Sincerely,
                                                                                Maggie Penn

Good songs to listen to

the heart

 From the very first second you stop running and your heart rate is faster then your thoughts, and for one second in time everything is clear. I am a strong believer that everyone's heart is different and mine , well it really likes to beat fast.
I've always been a quick person. Quick to learn, think, and say things. My Mom always told me to slow down. But my heart knows what it wants and it doesn't slow down for anyone or any thing. Un till the night I met him.
He taught me to stop and smell the roses. To enjoy the slow longboarding ride downs the canyon. The moment's right before the first kiss when the heart beats faster then it ever has before and the butterfly's in your stomach start going crazy.
When I was with him I didn't know a heart could beat so slow and calm. And after he would leave my heart beat faster then I could imagine. He is the reason my heart actually feels things now, and for that I am grateful yet wishing I still didn't feel anything at all.

Some one

Some people learn to forget. Others learn to forget what they learn the second they step one foot out the door. 
We always are forgetful to stop and admire the rain on the lonely roses. Loneliness cascades in cold darkness, we may not understand. Just the same as the sad song playing on the radio.
Often humans are afraid of the understanding of the unknown so we flea as much taboo subjects there are.
No one asks for my opinion so I try to forget the loneliness creeping into my degrading soul.
I am not sad. Not like I use to be. But I am not exactly happy. Especially with who I am.
Maybe that's how it is suppose to be 
Maybe that's how it's suppose to be
but let me tell you no one is forgotten
Not you. No anyone.

How to make a playlist

1. Go to Spotify

2. Click the new playlist button

3. Name the playlist Ex: chill, tender, summer jams, make out

4. Search through the new songs

5. When you find a song you like ADD it

6. repeat steps 4 and 5 until you think you have enough songs

7. listen to your playlist for a couple of weeks until you're sick of it

8. start all over again

Fearless

 I am afraid of disappointing my Mom, and letting my Dad. I am afraid of turning into my older sister, because she's at college and still doesn't know what she is going to do with her life. I am afraid of college because it means it is time for me to be a grown up, and I feel to young for that. I am afraid of not being perfect enough for my  grandma because I don't make it to church every Sunday. I am scared of seeing the Bishopric at church because they might ask me to give a talk and I get anxiety speaking in front of people. I am afraid of the dark. I am afraid I will always be afraid.

Alive

3 best friends, 1 car, 6 speakers, 4 windows rolled down, 1 song a song that brings them all to tears yet also makes them all so unbelievably happy it makes them laugh.

6 people, 2 boys, 4 girls, 1 house, 4 digits, 1 code that everyone seems to know and when they unlock the door they enter into a home where everyone is welcome and loved, with plenty of food for everyone.

1 phone, 2 Snapchat accounts, 39 day streak, 1 look that 2 people are hiding behind because they are 2 scared to say their true feelings about each other.

1 girl, 1,000,000 feelings, 2 eyes, 1 heart that feels every emotion, yet try's to block out any emotion because it hates getting hurt. Sometimes that 1 mind would rather feel paralyzed then feel anything. But then her heart steps in and helps her mind realize she just wants to feel alive, then nothing at all.